Miles was exposed to a lascivious lifestyle at a very early age. His experiences shaped his thinking and dealings with women that afforded him the extraordinary fantasy like experiences that undoubtedly were pleasurable at times but made it very difficult to maintain and cultivate meaningful relationships. Miles explores his past, his feelings and those cataclysmic experiences that seem to turn his world upside down at times. From having a brief relationship with stardom as a young rapper to being caught up in a ménage trios that seemed to get the best of him at times.
The absence of his father didn’t help. Though his father was physically in the picture, he wasn’t emotionally. His father’s identity seemed to be wrapped up in his ability to provide for his family and when he could no longer do so, he took to the bottle and began to take out his frustrations on his wife and kids, abusively of course. No wonder why Miles would end up a rebellious kid, searching for love in all the wrong places, and running to escape the difficulties and challenges of low income city life; which is why Miles ended up joining the Marines. Miles learned a valuable lesson during boot camp, learning to control his anger, a skill he would treasure for the rest of his life. Unfortunately, some of his old ways made it into the Corp, so he still pursued a promiscuous lifestyle. Though he desperately tried to maintain his relationship with his wife, he couldn’t rid his taste buds of the allure of Asian women. No doubt, these affairs would have a devastating affect on any relationship he found himself in.
His failed marriage did produce two beautiful daughters which motivated him to be a better person/father. He could definitely teach them a thing or two about the horrors of promiscuity and emotional fetters it puts on you. Though Miles’ experiences were not always positive they weren’t always negative. Who would have thought that he would end up having a successful basketball career in the Corp, fight for his beloved country and be blessed to return whole and intact! The Corp had taught him a few meaningful lessons. Life had caused him to look back and reevaluate. Just when he was ready to settle down, head over heels in love, ready to trust, his heart was broken. He was in love and blinded to the many emotional problems his wife to be had! He thought that he could fix her but he couldn’t. In many ways his own emotional problems left him blinded to hers. He proposed to her and she said no and how happy he was. He later thought, “What the hell was I thinking?”
These are just a few moments in the life of Mr. Miles Perkins. Tears Behind My Eyes is painfully funny, interesting and worth sharing with the world. It exposes Miles’ weaknesses, his strength, and tells how he grew into his size 13 shoes.